Day 45: A tough week.... but as Bon Jovi said 'Wooooooo we're half way there'

Well, I should be really happy....... but actually I've been feeling a bit down the last few days. Its been a tough week in one way or another.....

Probably my tweets have shown it, and also I've been quite quiet... well, quieter than usual! I felt it on Monday night after moaning at the Governments new education plan for eBacc's (which, as a youth worker I just don't agree with....but thats for another blog)... I felt depressed and quite miserable (Some would say 'so whats new' LOL!) and still feel it a bit now.

I think it stemmed from a weekend of seeing my old faithful friend... good food, and thinking 'I just can't do it any more'. 

Sunday's youth work was the best I've ever been involved in at St Francis (my workplace) - but both involved food. The morning group had a tea and toast morning with toppings. The evening group made their own pizza's. Then l went to a meeting last night where one of the group had made a fantastic looking fruit cake...... AAAAAAAHHHHHHHH!!!!! Inside I was screaming a bit as they munch... it smelt soooooo good.

Then I went to the gym this morning, and really didn't feel motivated to go. I really didn't enjoy it. Felt quite lethargic...short of energy, tired. 

I even went to Slimming World late this afternoon...... and found out I'd lost 2 lbs! Now most the woman there are like... 'WOW, wish I could lose 2lbs', where as I just didn't feel excited. 

It did mean I have now hit 1 1/2 stone....... half way there - and if I lose a pound a week up to Christmas I will hit the 3 stone on Christmas week! Which will be pretty impressive - although it doesn't feel like it tonight!

Now I think this is whats called 'the wall' - that time where the body is thinking, 'ok - this is now for good.... its just you don't have fun anymore SImon'.

And I guess I don't now with Food. This is where the change in diet becomes more than a fad...... but a lifestyle for good!!!!

But got to get myself out of this rutt....... so would value your encouragement and prayers. I'm still losing weight which is a real positive... just all the other stuff!

Thats it for today, I'm off to see Jo (my girlfriend) in a little while who is having a day in day surgery on her knee.... I'm sure that will take my mind off of feeling sorry for myself.

Life is full of temptations, but its how we get through them that makes us better people!!!

Take care, thanks for reading - and you know the usual.... please sponsor me if you can and haven't already done so.